I haven’t posted any goals in weeks.
I haven’t finished my home management binder.
I haven’t made my blogging video yet.
I haven’t read a book in a few weeks (besides kid books…and they don’t count!)
I haven’t gone running since last week.
I haven’t slept for more than 5 hours straight in weeks.
I haven’t lost the 5 lbs. I planned to lose by the end of the month (I think I’ve gained!)
I haven’t been out of the house in days…
I haven’t, I haven’t, I haven’t.
But you know what I have done?
I have cuddled with my oldest daughter as she fought several illnesses over the last two weeks.
I have cared for my youngest daughter as she struggled with vomiting and fever this week. Her birthday party had to be canceled because of it. 🙁
I have cared for my middle daughter with her recurring fever.
I have tended to my husband as he is running a fever today — and he never gets sick.
I have made meals.
I have cleaned the house (Lysol is my friend!).
I have watched my niece.
I have done the laundry.
I have cried buckets of tears because our sweet dog is slowly slipping away.
I have pondered quietly the death of my dad eight years ago this month.
I have prayed for strength to get through these weeks.
I have cried out for mercy time and time again.
I have, I have, I have.
You see, in the midst of all the things I haven’t done, I’m striving to be faithful to do what needs to be done most. They are small, everyday things — somewhat mundane — but important, nonetheless. To take care of my family — to be available to them and keep this house running! And mostly, to listen to the still, small Voice who whispers my name and carries me…loving me through all my imperfection.
As much as I hate “failing” in the goals I’ve set for myself, I realize that life happens. And grace prevails.
You and I cannot be perfect. We cannot meet every goal we set. And it’s okay.
We all have different amounts of energy, different priorities, different callings. And life throws different events our way every single day.
But here’s what we can do:
Embrace where we are, make our goals, fail at some, succeed at some, and do the very best with the time we’ve been given.
And if you don’t see any goals from me again for a few weeks, just know I’ve probably fallen to this illness swirling around our house….