If you missed the first posts in the series:
- Made to Crave Book Study: Introduction
- Made to Crave: Week 1
- Made to Crave: Week 2
- Made to Crave: Week 3
- Made to Crave: Week 4
We have a rather unhealthy relationship.
It’s on again. Off again. On again. Off again.
(Lame joke, I know. I just couldn’t help it!)
I shared a few weeks ago about my weigh-in for a weight-loss competition I was in, but what I didn’t really realize was technically that means I already failed my Whole30. You are NOT supposed to step on the scale during a Whole30. HOWEVER, since I have been doing awesome with the food part, and SINCE I am learning to give myself grace–instead of living in legalism and perfectionism, I am still continuing on as planned. No restart at this point for me! Dallas and Melissa can stone me later… 😉
Really, I have been thinking a lot about the scale. Until it was put away in the closet this month, I didn’t realize how addicted I am to it. Everyone morning for years, I’ve stepped on the scale. It’s almost a compulsive habit–and I didn’t know it until I wasn’t allowed to do it.
I think it’s a habit that has to go, because I’m guilty of letting the scale define who I am and how I feel.
“Oh, I’m down two pounds. Great! It’s going to be an awesome day.”
“Ugh. Up two pounds. I might as well give up and eat everything in sight.”
I know. That sounds a little dramatic–but it truly has felt like that on some days in the past for me. I didn’t really think I was so tied up in that number.
Yet, I should have realized. I can tell you how much I weighed at major milestone events in my life–like when I graduated from high school, when I graduated from college, the first year after we were married, after my first child, during pregnancy with my second daughter (highest ever), after my first Pound Plunge, after my second Pound Plunge (lowest ever except as a kid), when we moved, last winter….
Anyone see a problem with this? I don’t want to look back on my life and tie the events in my life to a number on a scale. That’s just creepy.
But here’s the thing: I don’t think it’s just me.
At the weigh-in earlier this month, one of the ladies told me how her friend had been participating in the challenge and was doing really well the first month (in the top 3 participants). She weighed in the second month, and the scale showed she had gained three pounds.
Guess what she did?
You see? She let the scale define her progress–when the truth is the scale can fluctuate. I can weigh myself in the morning, go eat breakfast and put on clothes, and weigh five more pounds within half and hour. Sometimes when I’ve been doing P90X or Insanity, I weigh more, but my clothes fit better because I have more muscle and less fat. So really, what does the scale tell me and why am I holding onto it?!!
I LOVE this piece on the Whole9 Life blog on Five Reasons to Get Rid of the Scale, and I’m trying to get to the point where I can throw out the scale for good, but I am honestly not there yet. I think I’m so afraid that I’ll wake up months down the road and find myself 50 pounds heavier, and I never want to go back there again.
I just keep reminding myself that it is not truth. I don’t have to have a scale to keep my weight down. I just need to be obedient to God and do what I’ve been learning this last month! I need to focus on listening to what my body is telling me–instead of what the scale says.
So, I’m trying to replace that lie (like I did last week) with truth and thankfulness. Here’s what I’ve been trying to do during the Whole30 instead:
1) Focus on how I feel.
Do I have more energy? Am I sleeping better? Am I less irritable? Am I craving less? Yes, yes, yes, and yes!
2) Realize the scale doesn’t predict health.
If I’m exercising and eating well, I’m getting healthier–no matter what the scale says! Besides, there are skinny people that are completely unhealthy…
3) Look at how my clothes are fitting.
They are still a little snug around the middle, but I tried on some pants the other day and the legs were much looser! I’m making progress!
4) Remember that the scale doesn’t define who I am.
Instead, I look to my Creator and let His Words define who I am. Child. Cherished Daughter. Free. Forgiven. Loved.
Week 5 of Made to Crave covered chapters 13-15. I don’t really have room to share too much of what Lysa said in those chapters, but they are definitely worth reading. One of the most helpful verses that Lysa shared was:
“Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.” 1 Corinthians 10:23 NIV
In the book, she is referencing the verse in relationship to food. For example, when I’m thinking about eating a piece of cake, I can remember that cake is permissible for me to eat, but I need to ask myself if it is really beneficial. With the way gluten makes me feel, I know it isn’t good for me.
I am finding this verse applies not only to my food choices–but to my scale battle, too. Obviously, it’s fine that I have a scale, but is it really beneficial? If I’m constantly letting it define my day or I feel this unhealthy compulsion to step on it every day no matter what, I think it isn’t really beneficial.
So, why can’t I just get rid of it?
I. Don’t. Know. *sigh*
What do you think? Should I pitch out the scale? Do you use a scale? Feel free to weigh in on my dilemma.
Sorry…another bad pun! 🙂